Shifting My Eating Paradigm

 

Over the past few days I’ve been reflecting my attitudes towards food. In my early 20s, I was rather disciplined when it came to eating. I was a vegetarian with vegan tendencies, many that I often went long stretches without eating dairy. Because of this, I used to whip up vegan dishes and desserts so much that friends began suggesting I sell some of my vegan cakes and cookies.

Somewhere along the way, though, my relationship with food began to change. But when? And why? That’s what I attempted to uncover through my reflections.

I realized that the change came about in my mid-20s. I was making more money than I had previously had and spent a lot of it eating out. My previously disciplined and holistic way of relating to food – considering how it impacting body, mind, and spirit – had been sacrificed for what seemed to be more fun and enjoyable. Why deny myself the plethora of amazing food choices even if they are filled with fat and sugar? “Eat now and worry about it later” became my subconscious mantra, never said aloud but all the while guiding my eating habits.

And I also realized that it’s this shift in my attitude towards food that keeps me from being as disciplined as I was previously. In the back of mind, discipline is denial, robbing me of something enjoyable that deserved to have.

Wow. Writing that just now feels just as powerful and freeing as it did when that revelation first came to me.

It’s only until I truly believe and accept the truth – that it’s the fatty, sugary, glutenous foods that are robbing me and denying me of my health and energy – that I will be able to return back to those days of disciplined eating.

I’m steadily working on shifting my belief system regarding food and eating. It’s not an easy task but I know in my heart that it’s absolutely necessary.


 

Goals this week:

  • Exercise daily: 1 hour on 3 days and 30 minutes on the remaining 4 days
  • Lose at least 2.5 lbs
  • Eat gluten free*

*For gluten-free oatmeal try Bob’s Red Mill’s Whole Grain Rolled Oats

Random Thoughts on Eating

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My very late brunch: #glutenfree blueberry pancakes and scrambled eggs with garlic, onion, and cheddar cheese.

I’m realizing that I love food and the act of eating. It’s in my best interest to make every meal an act of #selflove and #selfcare.

#sacredliving #weightloss #weightlossjourney #vibratehigher

Equinox Goals: Losing The Weight

I went to my doctor this week for my yearly checkup and she told me the same thing she told me last year: I need to lose weight.

My doctor is a Black female so when she tells me I need to lose weight, I know she is not telling me that because she thinks I need to be a size 2.  While I am grateful that I don’t have any serious health concerns, I know that weight loss will help me achieve my optimal health.

It’s not like I don’t know how to eat healthy or that I don’t know the importance of exercise.  I absolutely do.  It’s just that until about 7 years ago, I never had an issue with weight. I was a size 5 and didn’t have to think about what I was eating or how much exercise I did each week.  And then, almost overnight, it seemed I couldn’t just eat whatever I wanted or shrug at exercise.  Now I had to be intentional about being healthy!

Whaaaaat???!!!

I thought my body was turning on me.  Why was she being so stubborn about holding on to extra pounds.  And then slowly those pounds started creeping up…first 10, then 20…and now, 7 years later, I am a good 60 pounds over what I was back then.  And it has been much harder to lose this weight than it was to gain it!

I have lost a few pounds since the beginning of the year but I know that, with more intention and commitment, I can lose even more.  So I decided to put some accountability around this and make this weight loss journey public.  And I am hoping that other Black women who are working to make their bodies healthier, their minds freer, and their spirits lighter will join me on this journey.

Here are my commitments:

  • I am exercising daily.  Yes daily, for at least 20 minutes. 1 hour of exercise at least 3 times per week.
  • I am going to join at least one new exercise class.  I signed up for the Y yesterday so I have no excuse.
  • I am eating all my foods at serving size.  So if 2 crackers is the serving size and I am hungry, I need to eat the 2 crackers or opt for something else.  This will generate more discipline. Of course, veggies are at an unlimited serving size.
  • I am not adding any extra sugar to my diet.  Fruit is okay, in moderation, but no candies, cakes, cookies etc. except…
  • I will have 1 indulgence per week, at  serving size.  An indulgence means anything that fits into that “no good for you” zone when working to lose weight.  If one cookie is the serving size, then that’s all I will eat.  This also includes alcohol, so I will probably save my 1 indulgence for my glass of wine while watching Scandal.
  • I will eat very limited carbs, and especially wheat.  I haven’t been diagnosed with gluten allergies but I don’t like the way I feel after eating wheat, so I have been using gluten free products lately anyway.
  • I will update my progress at least once a week, including how much weight I have lost, how much exercise I got, how well I kept to my diet, and any other changes.

Cheer me on and share your insights!  I would love to hear them!